Wishing &Wanting

Category: Let's talk

Post 1 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 9:12:35

Have you ever felt completely alone,as if your is the only audible voice echoing across the entire world?,
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Have you ever desperately wanted someone to hold you and say "everything will be alright I'm not going anywhere"................Have the nights dragged by until every minute feel like an hour and those hours eventually become an interminable nightmare.
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Do you ever want to escape or belong to somewhere where no -one knows your identity and you are free to create an entirely new life fee from pain.

Are you familiar with the pain of wanting to be wanted by someone--anyone "they just might be strong enough to handle the bleeding from your never healing scars..No why? Should i bet on that the odds are always against me".

Post 2 by _rory_ (predictable kryptic) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 9:15:05

you are not alone, alex. i feel that way right now.

Post 3 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 9:16:20

why what's happened P'M me
and maybe we can help each other.

Post 4 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 9:36:36

Typical the minute I offer to help she runs in the opposite direction no wonder I've given up on the human race.

Post 5 by _rory_ (predictable kryptic) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 9:55:20

what are you talking about? i'm still here. didn't run. too weak to run right now, anyway lol. wouldn't run if i could. you're a good friend.

Post 6 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 10:02:05

Sorry Scottish grumpiness feel free to tell me off.ducks behind pc.
Cheers I try to be...In spite of everything.

Post 7 by _rory_ (predictable kryptic) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 10:05:56

you're doing fairly well in the keeping it together department.

Post 8 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 10:12:43

Well I'm such a ham and the net has a strange sedative effect maybe its the new prozac.

Post 9 by _rory_ (predictable kryptic) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 10:24:47

lol! maybe.

Post 10 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Saturday, 30-Oct-2004 11:05:54

how are you feeling? maybe some good old fashioned indulgence might help.

Post 11 by wildebrew (We promised the world we'd tame it, what were we hoping for?) on Sunday, 31-Oct-2004 1:33:27

Acosha,
Why would you want to be wanted when you know you already are, way more than you ever know and certainly way more than you'll ever believe, I know sometimes you're not entirely convinced and for a good rason but nobody is perfect and it doesn't mean the desire for you does exist, constantly and relentlessly. You just tend to forget it sometimes, we all forget things sometimes, we all sometimes feel like we're not wanted when we just don't realize how wanted we are. I can't speak for everyone here, but I know you for one are definitely not unwanted and you never will be. *hugs*
Hope you feel better. Alex, my man, hopw you feel better :) can't offer you the same type of assurances, only here's to you feeling better and being an important part of our community dude. :)
cheers
-B

Post 12 by shaken not stirred (Veteran Zoner) on Sunday, 31-Oct-2004 1:43:53

Well, I totally understand the feeling. It's amazing how you can be in a room full of people and still feel so alone. You can have loads and loads of friends and still feel as unloved as if you had none.

Post 13 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Sunday, 31-Oct-2004 10:27:35

Sweet that's it exactly but this type of exile is my own fault,how do you avoid or deal with situation,it takes a lot of nerve to get up and leave.

Post 14 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Sunday, 31-Oct-2004 10:28:54

Thank you Wildebrew all the best man she's braw as we would say

smile.

Post 15 by _rory_ (predictable kryptic) on Sunday, 31-Oct-2004 10:44:54

aww, thanks wildebrew. *hugs*

Post 16 by Emerald-Hourglass (Account disabled) on Sunday, 31-Oct-2004 13:29:44

It's good to know there's people out there that feel the same way. I don't know these last few months have been so dark and gloomy. As one of you said, you could be in a room full of people and still feel alone. Well that's what it feels like for me rite now. Anyways bye for now. Much love*

Post 17 by shaken not stirred (Veteran Zoner) on Sunday, 31-Oct-2004 14:32:41

Well, Goblin...I just think of the alternative...that is, if I don't extricate myself from my own self-made prison. I mean...what is to be gained in wallowing? I'm not preaching by any means, and most of the time I don't even listen to my own advice. But at the times when I'm feeling exceptionally logical, I think about it...lol.

Post 18 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Monday, 01-Nov-2004 12:48:09

true i'll try that out and I think we could all be accused of ignoring our own advice at some time or other,we would rather avoid dealing with the truth.

Still things are a little better Ally {my brother}And i have sorted things out,I apologised and he accepted so we just have to tread carefully for a while and neither of us is subtle
smile

Post 19 by shaken not stirred (Veteran Zoner) on Monday, 01-Nov-2004 13:07:11

Well, that's good to hear. I've never been told I'm the most subtle person in the world...and family strife is the worst...absolutely awful.

Post 20 by Goblin (I have proven to myself and the world that I need mental help) on Monday, 01-Nov-2004 13:51:41

I blame it on being a Sagittarian lol we are very unsubtle and family stuff is the worst,more so when there are some problems that can't be fixed without inflicting pain on someone you really love but, at least we're enjoying an uneasy peace at the moment.

Post 21 by shaken not stirred (Veteran Zoner) on Monday, 01-Nov-2004 20:46:36

I suppose an uneasy peace is better than no peace at all...although sometimes I wonder. Sometimes it takes some harsh words to get your point across. Stubborn ppl...myself included...don't usually listen to nice sweet talking ppl who pussy foot around an idea. Sometimes it takes a large dose of reality to cure us...and god does the medicine taste disgusting.